Living in the Moment

In my tipsy state, this is how I remember our conversation (it's a bit reworded and edited)…

Living in the moment

I was at drinks with Baabaa Blue eyes and we were just talking about random things until he asked me one question… Have you ever been carried away? Like swept in the moment? For example you meet the man of your dreams at a bar and he’s absolutely everything you want in a guy… so you talk and he leans in for a kiss… what would you do?

I just said I imagine the man of my dreams would go the usual proper way. Try to get to know me before he tries anything else. It’s the safest way anyway.

And he said wait… you mean at that moment when everything seems so perfect you won’t let yourself get lost in the moment? And let the feeling overwhelm you? That’s so sad.

I said those things, happy endings after a random night at a bar? It only happens in movies. It’s not like there’s a camera pointed at me and I’m living a romantic script. I’m not playing a character who meets someone who I’ve met at a bar and we have one amazing week and we fall in love. (note to self: that actually happened to Ate A and Eric)

He goes… someone’s always watching. Our life is one big movie. We were meant to have grand times… moments when we get carried away. When there’s no time to think but just to feel. It’s not about the happy ending, it’s about that moment.

I was just shaking me head saying we don’t live in movieland…

and then he says… Oh yeah? What would you call memories then? Memories are like a movie only they’re not shown on a big screen.

Of course I had to ruin a perfectly good conversation by saying… oh my God, that’s so profound can I write it on my blog? Hahaha I’m pretty certain Baabaa was thinking "you weird dork" while he said sure and went to get another round.

We’re meant to live life with moments that take our breath away. Haphazardly, crazily, exhilaratingly, amazingly… getting lost in a kiss, in a starry night, in a moment--- just to feel alive.

Not to say that we throw our values out the window or that getting carried away only applies to romantic relationships, but it’s about jumping in the ocean instead of dipping our toes.

After a while don't you get tired of following rules, of acting proper, of doing what is expected, of being the perfect son/daughter, brother/sister, boyfriend/girlfriend? It’s time to live like life is nobody’s business but yours. It’s time to walk along the edge, taste life, feel life, live life.

It took me that moment to realize that wow while I was thinking I’m living life to the fullest, I’ve missed one of the most important things! Not to calculate too much or to over analyze, or to think about what other people might say. There is no one way to live life correctly. I have to find my own path. Not just listen to what I’ve been told. I have to own my convictions and values. I have to experience life. Not hear about it from family or other people. I have to make my own story.

And for once… maybe twice or thrice… get lost in the moment and have grand memories to share or to keep in blissful secret.


FIRST DAY AT WORK

Work was good... It's totally different from Creatives. I'm in Business Co-Ordination (I don't know why they spell it that way) for Dell Computers, the biggest account in the agency. So far, I haven't made any booboos so I hope the rest of the week goes smoothly. I actually left the office at 5:40! That's so early for a Manila agency. I'm not complaining at all :D It was one workmate's birthday so we had cheese and crackers and jam and grapes.

I give myself +20 de-bratting points for taking the bus, walking home and cooking dinner :) It was raining while I was crossing Pyrmont Bridge. I was so tempted to shut my umbrella and run around, but I was wearing one of mom's nice coats and I didn't want my LV bag to get wet :P I can't wait for summer so I can run through the fountains!

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